The concept is maybe still the same. A-la diary. Actually, I don't know what is okay to put in here. Personal experience, personal opinion, personal.....life?
I was having difficulties in understanding what my life is all about before. I was blaming all the bad things and habit that I picked up and learnt and experienced all these horrible 22 years of my life. Blaming others, and Allah's arrangements (even not directly), pretending that I am the victim. How.....arrogant!!
I hope this feel-good feeling will never end. Because, there is something that I am worrying about recently. I believe, I have shortage of memories. I mean, I easily forget things that I felt and said as early as yesterday. Well, not all things but a quarter of them. For example, I know I did chat with a friend yesterday, but I don't remember about what. We had a long chat, the topics might be random, and it was great, but I don't remember what.
No, I'm going senile!!
Well, another thing about yesterday, I had a long chat (too) with my parents. I was asked to follow them to Sungai Buluh. I will have a session, to cure me actually. It got something to do with the 'thing' that resides within me. And I was told that I am not normal and weird. I was sad at first, but to think, it's not just me who behaves like me. I know someone as I am. And not surprisingly, I feel attached to that person and we go well together. Maybe, it's just because of the differences of our personalities which make people think that we are not normal. (^_^)
Let me get this straight, if nothing change after this, I don't want to go to another session anymore.
Whatever happens, I feel great this morning. I hope it will always be, insyaAllah.
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