Protests

Sejurus selepas protes yang melanda di Tunisia dan Mesir, negara-negara Arab lain pun turut mengikut jejak langkah mereka. Masing-masing atas sebab yang sama; kuropsi. Akan tetapi, media perdana negara-negara tersebut mesti mengatakan pihak pembangkang ingin mencetuskan huru-hara dan mengganggu gugat keamanan negara. Dan kemudian mengatakan bahawa pembangkang itu dan pembangkang ini.

Dan tadi aku terbaca berkenaan protes di Bahrain. Media kerajaan mengatakan bahawa masyarakat Syiah yang terdiri lebih kurang 70% daripada populasi negara itu, ingin menggulingkan sistem raja yang berpegangan Ahli Sunnah Wal Jamaah yang memerintah negara itu.

Namun apabila dibaca dalam sumber alternatif lain, ternyatalah bahawa semuanya itu adalah pergerakan rakyat yang inginkan pemerintahan yang lebih tulus dan bebas korupsi, termasuklah polis yang menghisap darah rakyat tempatan dan bersifat ganas yang membuatkan rakyat takut untuk bersuara. Tidak ada langsung perjuangan sentimen-sentimen lain. Cumalah perjuangan untuk mendapatkan hak dan maruah sebagai seorang manusia.

The Dialog

I love things related to religion and belief. And I went to the great hall after Maghrib, just to listen to the inter-religion dialog, and the contents are just about brief explanation of concept of God according to Islam, Buddha and Hindu. I just hope they add up Christian's point of view. Well, they might want to but maybe got some problems.

I hate to say this, but most people don't speak clearly when they are on stage. So, there will be difficulties in understanding what is going on on there, and surely buat orang rasa bosan dan tak nak dengar.

And in another aspect, some people tend to touch the authenticity of certain religion. Different believers belief differently. That is one of the sensitivity that I believe should be avoided. The forum is to know each other; what's the basis of the religion, what's the concept, the laws etc. Not to ask for proves whether your religion is true or not.

The world right now, full of people who believe there is God and that's that, and another population that is increasing right now is the ones who don't believe God at all. Plus, we live in a colourful community. And I found so many prejudices among people with different religion and believes, especially. Itu belum campur dengan kefahaman politik lagi.

Tapi so far, forum tu memang sambutannya agak menggalakkan. Tadi ramai lagi yang menanti nak tanya soalan. Means, orang tak tidur dan pay attention masa penceramah sedang bercakap lagi.

Dan harapannya, akan ada lagi siri inter-religion forum ni nanti.

Menanti BEAR Pulang

To those who don't know, Bear is a nickname I gave to my sister. Hehe... another nickname present in this house is Kecik, which I call my smallest sister with, and Kiah or Zakiah (Anas 999), which refer to the same person, but used by Bear. Okay, Kiah or Zakiah might be a common name, but her actual name is Nadhirah. I have no idea why she called her Zakiah.

So, Eid is coming, PBS is done, assignments waiting waving frantically for me to sit and do but I am so busy apart from headache which attacks me almost everyday. Well, as Bear is going home today, I might have a chance or two to do AT LEAST the 'theoretical knowledge' for the practical report. And, the PUPPET!! What am I suppose to do? Make a story and just do a simple puppet with socks? Well, that seems a good idea.

Why they give us lots of work for a week of holiday? It is just a week of holiday; no one will have a chance to do work a week before Eid. I'm not super human. And PBS week is not a holiday.

What to do. Work is work. It will never end. Until death.

So, starting end of last week I made some cookies. And just finished one this morning. And I successfully tidied up this room (which may be 'berserabut semula' after this as I brought up the printer and such). Imagine a room two third of the hostel room (in Afzan), shared by three person, and another room with the same width now is shared by....let me see...3 - 5 LARGE GUY; you'll never find a 'warmer place' on Earth full with love and hugs. Hahahahahahaha.... The rooms are never tidy, and I always give up doing so. What's the point when you don't even have enough space to sit let alone to put the stuffs you got.

Not that I blame my parents for the small house. Just... keep the things to the minimum (say that to yourself dude!!). Well, good thing that 3 of us live outside and come back just during holiday or weekend.

Mak is cleaning the lower floor right now. There are rats living on the ceiling. And one died recently. One, I met a maggot under on the long chair under the stairs where the rat rot. It was fat!! Well, you don't need to say about the smell. A living stack of cells are rotting. What else can you say?

Actually, in my opinion, poison is better to kill rather than using traps. It is more effective. When I was in UK, I lived beside a box where water and gas pipe are in there. And rats (in my case mice) usually use pipes routes to go around the house. The box was just beside the bed and I made it as a table to put my alarm clock and bedroom lamp. And I always see tiny tails poking out of the box, the sounds they made etc. A guy from the pest control put some packets of poison paste through each holes in there, and the problem solved. At least in my room.

But most people doesn't like using poison. That is just because the rats can die anywhere, at unreachable places and you can't throw the body out of the house. And when that happen, you just have to bear the unbearable smell and maggots coming out of nowhere. Well, so far I am okay with that. But not my mum.

So, that's about rats. What else eh?

Talking about Bear. Angah will fetch her today, with Dekli and Hafiz. They'll go to KL, go to Damansara to get her, then 'awek Angah', go shopping, and return home. Oh, Angah-wife-to-be is from Raub, lived about half an hour from here. One thing, each day always in news, stories about accident. It is really common in Malaysia. Not going to say much, but I think it is rare to find one in UK. There might be accidents there, but not so easy to find one even during festive time. Can I say that our people is lack of carefulness? Or maybe rude? Or maybe think that a life means nothing you can make a new one anytime you want (that might be a reason why people kill babies nowaday)?

Please, I hope everything will be alright. I don't want to lose anybody, anyone wouldn't want to. People out there, drive carefully. If you badly want to die, just die by yourself. Don't take others with you. They have family, they are needed by their family. If you want to go, just go. (Well, sounds like I'm talking about myself here).

So far, Eid Mubarak everyone. Be happy during the day. Praise HIM a lot, because He is the only one who deserves all the praising. I didn't reach my Ramadhan target, unfortunately. I call that, a feeling of difficulties of going to mosque. It is out of laziness. It is different.

Anyway, EID MUBARAK!!

It Hurts

My head is still hurt. It has been years, each time I cried, or depressed, my head hurts like hell. All the veins popping out, and I thought it is the sign of migraine. Well, maybe worst.

I rethink, of getting help from a psychiatrist. But, I have no idea where to start. I checked the Malaysian Mental Health Association website, and there is only one place to go which is in Kuantan. There are also one session each month in other hospital in each district, but you have to refer to the hospital, make an appointment, and that takes time.

Why don't they have at least a small clinic in each district? In this country where lots of incidents, murderers with mental problem which increase each day, why don't they make a permanent place where we can go?

Pengutip Sampah

Aku tertarik membaca tajuk berita ni; 'Foraging Hard For Extra Duit Raya'. My first impression when reading the title, 'kesiannya'. But when I read through the article, I said 'WOW!!'

Wanna know why? I copied the article from NST, feel free to read.

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Foraging hard for extra 'duit raya'

BACHOK: For about 100 scavengers at the Kampung Gong Nibong dumpsite in Beris Lalang, looking for recyclable items in exchange for cash has become more urgent during the month of Ramadan as they make preparations for Hari Raya Aidilfitri.
Picking through the heaps, they gathered materials such as plastic and glass bottles, aluminium cans and scrap metal which could be sold to recycling agents and scrapyard dealers.

Some of them could cash in their day's collection for between RM50 and RM70 -- enough to feed their families.


One of the scavengers, Tuan Jarah Tuan Ismail, 62, from Kampung Pantai Dasar Sabak said she had been involved in collecting recyclable materials for the past 20 years.

"I earn between RM30 and RM40 a day selling the waste to recycling agents. I took up this work to get earn extra income while my husband works as a security guard in Kota Baru."

She said with their combined income, she and her husband could raise their nine children, aged between 20 and 35.


Noriah Mat San, 52, from Pengkalan Chepa in Kota Baru, said her husband and their 19-year-old son joined her recently in search for the recyclable waste.

"We begin about 9am and finish about 5pm. During the fasting month, there are times that we have to break our fast at the dumpsite as we have to work long hours to collect more stuff.

"On a good day, we can get as much as RM70 from our efforts."


Mohd Faizal Mohd Salleh, 24, said he switched from driving taxi to scavenging at the dumpsite early this year as it was more lucrative to sell recyclable materials.

He claimed that he could earn as much as RM2,000 a month, a vast improvement from the time he drove the taxi, which earned him only about RM400 a month.

"The coming Hari Raya will be meaningful for my family as I can afford to buy many things including getting new clothes for my two daughters, who are 1 and 3 years old."

He admitted that he felt embarrassed in the beginning when some friends knew that he worked at a rubbish site.

But, he added, he gradually overcame the shame as the income from his efforts was more than sufficient to support his family.



Read more: Foraging hard for extra 'duit raya' http://www.nst.com.my/nst/articles/8thrashing/Article/#ixzz0xfoYZU5H

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RM30 per day? Just by scavenging?

I got several points here. First, we produce huge mass of rubbish per day. Isn't that amazing. Next we can feed our kids with the money from the rubbish we threw eh?

Can see that a 19 years old guy joined his parents collecting rubbish in the article above? And how much money can he get per day? With that money, young people may stop going to school even at very young age. Isn't that a waste for the country?

And, see a RM400-per-month-paid taxi driver stop from driving taxi because by scavenging he got 5 times more than that. We in Malaysia are paid low, but in the same time the country is rich and got many money. Where does the money goes?

Just a point to ponder.

In Mood of Writing

I love to write, even simplest things and non-important things. But surprisingly, I hate to write in diary. On paper, I mean.

Since I was in primary school, I used to attempt writing stories. Love stories, unfortunately. And since that, I write. But none ever finished. Berhenti separuh jalan.

Even these past few years, I write. Poems, short stories, stories and even series. But again, berhenti separuh jalan.

When I finished school, I tend to write things about life. Mostly about what I feel, because that effect the whole story making it more real. And slowly, I progress of writing facts and comments on daily incident, because that is what I'm in love today.

I realised, I'm not easily 'istiqamah' in doing things. I like to spend all the time doing one thing, and never can do it bit by bit because when I'm out of idea, I'm out. I like to do work fast, and can never wait patiently over some delays. When I'm doing it, I'm doing it. Often, I've been told by my parents to come down and join the family, or eat. But I simply can't.

Only one thing that can stop me. Sleep. That is one of the top priorities for me, because that is the only chance for me to stop thinking. I think a lot, sometimes for simple things such as people's look towards me. And for one particular thing, it takes sometimes years for me to stop thinking. And I hate it.

So that is why I sleep a lot.

I am having headache since yesterday regarding assignments, how to pack my things (I'm thinking about the process involving each particular things), where to put them, my food supply for this week, next coming SBE and how to approach the teachers and all, how to do the work, practical report especially what I am doing now and specifically what the hell ether is actually, when's the allowance will be deposited and how will be the situation when I'm going to buy the laptop, how will be the situation of me with my family for this three weeks will there be any bad things happen, will my cousin live in there, should I bring back the printer alone or should I put it in its box, and lots of things which I think almost simultaneously.

Gila.

So, writing actually does limit the things that I'm thinking and seems like a good diversion for me. Tapi apa-apa pun, ianya berkesan jika menulis apa yang kita minat. For instance, if you hate writing assignments, how can you understand what you write and reflect what you got throughout the process?

Unless you just copy and paste.

Berpandangan Senget

Right, mungkin ramai yang akan mengutuk aku nanti. Tak kisahlah.

I want to talk about business. Kecilkan lagi skop, bisness yang tak memerlukan penjualan produk atau perkhidmatan. Cari ahli, letak bawah kita, galakkan lagi cari ahli bawah kepada ahli yang kita dapat tadi untuk dapat komisyen.

I don't have any idea what is that for. Mengembangkan perniagaan?

Frankly, I have tiny knowledge about business, apatah lagi benda ni. Some people may say bisnes MLM. That is just a phrase yang orang selalu guna dan aku selalu dengar.

Bad thing is, some people (especially not really educated ones) tend to join this kind of business. Yalah, katanya untung banyak, modal kurang, hanya perlu cari orang. Siapa tak nak cepat kaya kan? And they've been fed with photos of successful people who I see got about 10 to 20 big cars, luxurious houses, wear exclusive clothes and so on, who already done the business.

The latest I found, they also put this phrase: boleh hantar mak ayah pergi haji. And actually, I've been suggested to join this and that reason above is used. Rasa macam.... what the heck? Orang kita selalunya disogokkan dengan duit dan kesenangan. Kali ni menggunakan 'pendekatan agama'?

Tak salah untuk banyak duit. But then, please consider how the money comes. And consider, should you get lots of money with ease? Actually, business is still business. The ads said you just need to pay a little amount of money for registration and that's all. Actually, you are encouraged to attend talks and workshops of how to attract people with the business, learn to talk whatsoever. And you have to pay. And for those who are 'buta IT', need to attend IT classes. Believe me, I know someone who doesn't even know how to open microsoft word, let alone to handle a website or making ads. So of course they'll go to the classes, and in the end, they just hire someone to do the work.

These people usually attack those guys who are really 'buta IT'and old people. Sangat sedih sebenarnya. The money that they spent for the business actually can be used in other way. But everything is burnt just like that.

Sesetengah orang memang berniat baik. Nak tolong bangsa sendiri. Lagipun perniagaan adalah salah satu punca rezeki terbesar dan boleh mengubah ekonomi dunia. But I don't see any kind of business present in there. Just... cari ahli. At least if promoting products, boleh terima jugalah.

That is just my personal opinion, based on my experience. Not to condemn anyone, just giving a point of view about this.

What To Write Eh?

I'm in class, thought to do some typing for my PCK report. But then I realised I left the results in my dorm.

Well, talk about classic and nostalgic. I got a neighbour next-door, who likes to come to my room when she is homesick, just to listen songs I played with my cassette player. That is because, sound from radio is somewhat nostalgic for her, reminding her to her home and family. Really, the sound is different even if you play the same song from your mp3 player.

Nowadays, we just depend on our mp3 player, or our laptop, desktop. Less people is actually buying the real album. That's what happen when advance technology presents. And, why bother buying when you can get for free?

Isn't that a kind of stealing?

I do have mp3's too. So, I do steal. I usually 'steal' songs which the album is difficult to find now. I'm all crazy about the 80's and early 90's rock and metal albums. And it is almost impossible to find one. And overseas metal albums too. So, that is my reason. But for movies, so far I only have one pirated movie, and one I copied from my friends.

When we talk about movies, I love to have them in high definition. Which, I can play on large screen. Downloaded ones usually have low definition, they look awful even played on your laptop.

I just realised, there are not much movies in dvd in Malaysia. Just being used of using dvd, it's a mess having to change the cd in the middle of the story. But the pros is, vcd is cheaper.

When I was in UK, I always do cassettes hunting at car boot sale. And it was damn difficult to find one. One time, I found this Gary Moore 'still got the blues' album. And I got it for free, because I bought about 5 LPs that time.

I also hunt in Amazon UK, but the prices are too high. Even if the items are sold for 1 p each, you need to pay for the postage, which will cost you total around GBP 3 or 4 for each item.

Now I already stop hunting. That's simply because I have no idea of what to buy. Next, maybe I'll start collecting videos and concert vcds. That, might be after 5 years from now. I need to spare my money for something else first.

It is fun having a hobby. It is like an identity for you. But for me, my parents are always grunting because of my hobby (and identity). They talk about the albums I got, songs I listen, friends I got. I remember this one day when Mak was browsing over Facebook, she came across my post, and this one person, I bet you all know, Ustaz Radzi ex-vocalist for Melissa (popular song - Cinta Untuk Nabila), he replied to my post. Mak asked me, how come he knew me? I just said, 'rockers kan...'. Lepas tu dia mencebik.

That, is what I always received for years.

I always being told what to be, how to behave, what I should like, what I should do, who should I be friends with etc. It's like, being programmed like a robot. That is what I feel, others might think it is not. It depends. I easily protest, and I want to be my own self.

I have bad memories about this, and it effects me for years, until I lost my head and going crazy. Well, bad things are bad after all. Just try making it positive.

Seems I write a bit long this time. I'll stop now.

Mansuh Tak Mansuh Itu Kerja Orang Atas

Aku nak kata 100% setuju UPSR & PMR mansuh ni, tidaklah. Bak kata kebanyakan orang, modify mengikut keperluan semasa. Yalah, sekarang ni ibu bapa ramai yang mendesak anak dapat gred A. Kalaulah boleh, semua subjek yang ada, semuanya nak ambil. Kalau yang jenis pintar cerdas tu, biarlah. Tapi bagi yang lemah? Yang berkeperluan khas? Yang mahir dalam amali dan praktikal tapi lemah dalam menjawab soalan peperiksaan?

Semuanya kena kira. Make it 40-50% kerja kursus dan projek, a small proportion on monthly test or regular observations, and the rest on exams. Maka yang lahirnya, pelajar yang berkualiti dan punya tenaga kerja yang mahir. Bukan graduan atas kertas semata-mata.

Di kawasan perumahan aku ramai sangat dah yang berhenti sekolah. Bukan sebab miskin, atau bodoh. Tapi dah jemu.

Kalau budak-budak dah malas dan jemu nak belajar, macam mana dengan masa depan? Yang rosak itu MUSLIM. Bukan orang lain.

Kenapa Perlu Sampai Bergaduh?

Aku menjenguk ke Iluvislam.com.

Ada satu forum, bertajuk 'Nilai Murni Orang Barat Yang Boleh Kita Contohi'. Ada orang bergaduh di sana. Sebabnya, ada yang berpendapat, buat apa nak contohi orang kafir padahal Islam itu syumul dan merangkumi seluruh kehidupan kita. Benar.

Tapi pendapat aku, apabila kita dah tengok aplikasi dari orang barat tentang nilai murni yang telah ada dalam Al-Quran dan Hadith, kita baru rasa worth to try. Kadang, kita tak punya akses dan kebolehan untuk belajar dan mendalami Al-Quran itu sendiri. Ataupun, kita hanya belajar secara 'surface' sahaja. Kita lebih banyak belajar melalui pengalaman dan aplikasi orang lain yang kita lihat dengan mata kita sendiri.

Sesetengah orang, menganggap budaya barat itu buruk. Contoh paling utama adalah pergaulan sosial. Apa saja yang datang dari barat adalah kafir dan harus dijauhi.

Aku sebenarnya dan sejujurnya, tak minat dengan 'orang putih' ni. Bukan sebab mereka kafir, ataupun berasal dari barat. Aku memang tak suka. Nature.

Tetapi, tak dinafikan, bangsa-bangsa dari negara atas angin ini, banyak mendatangkan cemuhan dari orang-orang timur. Sebab utamanya adalah kerana kebanyakan mereka beragama kristian. Dan dalam kepala kita, kalau orang kristian, mereka pasti nak tarik kita masuk agama dia. Kerana, kalau kita pun, mesti kita nak tarik mereka masuk agama kita. Tapi perlukah kita prejudis terhadap bangsa-bangsa tertentu?

Dalam setandan pisang pun, pasti ada yang buruknya. Dalam diri kita sendiri, walau taat dan baik macam mana pun kita, pasti ada sedikit sifat riak dalam diri. Begitu juga dengan manusia. Hidup dalam suasana Islam tak memastikan kita ikhlas dalam setiap detik kehidupan kita. TAPI tak dinafikan, kita disarankan untuk bergaul dengan orang yang berilmu dan beriman, kerana sahabat itu adalah orang yang boleh mempengaruhi diri kita sendiri.

Namun, adakah kerana mereka kafir, maka sifat-sifat peribadi yang baik terhapus terus dalam diri mereka?

Kita kadang memperlekehkan mereka yang bersifat 'racist'. Tapi dalam masa yang sama kita mencemuh jiran kita yang berbangsa cina dan india. Tak salah kita nak berjaga-jaga kerana mereka punya kelebihan mereka yang tersendiri. Tapi tak perlulah kita nak mengagung-agungkan bangsa kita sendiri kononnya lebih mulia. Patutnya, kita berusaha untuk meletakkan diri kita di tempat yang lebih tinggi dari mereka, jika kita teringin sangat nak mendabik dada.

Setiap orang ada buruk dan baiknya. Ambil pengajaran bagi yang buruk, dan yang baik, jika bersesuaian, bolehlah kita contohi.

Emosional

I just, feel too emotional, especially after reading the story of Marwa Al-Sherbini who was stabbed numerous times in a court in front of everyone, and they ignored, just because she wore hijab (tudung). Too tragic, when we Muslims, being treated like terrorists, uncivilised people, just because we obey and protect what our religion told us to do.

Plus, me myself nowadays, got lots of ups and downs, regarding aurat. True, in certain point, I feel like, it's not cool wearing a hijab. But, in the same time, my heart is torn between what I want and what Allah told us to do and not to do. We know what we want is wrong. But one side is much heavier than the other, and it's like, driving you mad. I always thought, what should I do?

I am angry, when people not covering their aurat, or as if they are covering but when it comes to myself, I feel.... what should I do?

When it comes to serious matter, I can be a very perfectionist one. That hurts my head a lot.

Panas Mata..Pedihhhh..

Aku tengok gambar satu minah ni. Aku kenallah. Alah, biasalah kan, duk melepak pantai, pakai bikini got, tanned, even YOU ARE A MUSLIM. Kan? Kan?

Everything is not right. Everything!!

Tak kisahlah kalau orang nak kata, "Ala... pakai tudung tak semestinya baik. Kat internet sekarang macam-macam ada."

Then, if your mom jenis pakai tudung gak, dare to say yang dia pun tak semestinya baik, pernah juga merendet macam pelacur macam yang selalu kita tengok kat internet tu??

Yalah, dunia dah serba moden. Wanita seusia dengan aku, tak logiklah tak pernah langsung 'main'. Kan? Kan?

Dunia serba moden yang menyakitkan kepala. Perangai masing-masing macam apa tah.