Teacher's Day?

I don't celebrate such thing. Even Mother's Day or Father's Day. It's just a symbol. Nothing more.

Nothing wrong, in the other hand. It depends on how we perceive the celebration, the remembrance. And also what we experienced in life.

I hate teachers. That's my emotional statement. That statement is based on what I went through my life as a student, dealing with certain teachers that are not even qualified to be a teacher.

As a child, I was truly hurt by some person I called adult. Let it be anyone. Because, as we look around us, there are so many adults who are more childish than the children. The selfishness, and the superiority they think they are compared to us young being makes me want to beat them so much, to the extent to kill them.

But as I grow up, even there are still many adults (oitt!! you are one of them already la...) who are not fit to be an adult but still looking down on us; I learnt that no one is perfect. And no one is similar. Some people are easy to deal with, some are not (I'm in the second group). So, even if they are sucks to the max, they are still somebody who the young ones should respect to.

And yes, not all of my former teachers are irritating. Instead, lots of them are very nice, funny, cool, etc. So, jangan sebab nila setitik rosak susu sebelanga.

To all my teachers, the ones I love and the ones I hate, Happy Teacher's Day.

Kehendak Untuk Menulis

I lost my touch. Hehe...

Sebenarnya, memang rasa nak saja penuhkan blog ni dengan entri-entri. Tapi rasanya, aku dah mula hilang masa dan minat nak menulis benda yang remeh-temeh.

Aku sedari, aku mula agak 'formal' dan serius sekarang ni. Jarang juga berfoya-foya kecuali dengan tidur saja. Lain-lainnya, buat kerja itu ini, membaca. Ohhhh tidakkkk!!!
Maybe that's the cause rasa macam agak robot sedikit sekarang ni.

Tapi tak kisahlah. Life's going fine. Tapi macam tak seronok aje asyik stress kerja. Cuba la sakit sikit ke, ada masalah jiwa sikit ke, masalah kewangan ke, apa-apa sajalah. Rasa macam kurang mencabar saja hidup ni.
But then, mana tahu kan, Allah nak kasi aku relax sekejap sebelum nak jatuhkan ujian maha hebat selepas ni. Dan kesenangan pun satu ujian juga kan? Ok, tak boleh nak rasa selesa walaupun hidup macam selesa dan tenang sekarang ni.

Anatomy...........Pening!

Noticed that I've changed my profile photo again? I just think that photo suits me well. Hehe...

So, what about anatomy? I have a subject called Anatomy and Physiology this semester. My lecturer said, the things that we are learning is just the surface of what first year medic students are learning. Okay... so?

It happens that my first elective is Physical Education, so what I am learning now is important; first to get the degree, and second because I might need to teach PE other than Science in school. So, I think it is very essential subject. Plus, you can learn more about something which is out of our field.

But I happen to be not really good in memorizing things. I am usually clueless about this subject, plus last year's biology lesson was like hell and it can't help me at all now. So, when there is work to do, I'm always raging and in stress; I need to work harder than everybody else. It is not good for my health though; I'm always having severe headache now.

So Mak, I'm really not suitable to be a doctor. Hehe..

Sudah Masuk Disember

Masa cuti, dua minggu, rasa macam sekejap saja berlalu. What did I do these two weeks? Jogging, bersukan, menjahit, catching up with the three CSIs' series and House and The Biggest Loser Asia, sleep my heart out. And as usual, my actual plan for the holiday hanya berusik sikit saja. First is to complete my MQA filesssssss, and reading. I want, at least to finish reading the Muqaddimah by Ibn Khaldun, translated one of course. But I think the files completing is the most important one and I need to read the related books first to make the notes and the ISLs etc. It is like learning all of that again. It sucks actually. Who likes learning at the age of mine?

Talking about age, I am kind of tired of answering my grandma's questions of how old I am now and when will I get married. And once, she told me that I am old. I mean, not that I'm going to be already menopause at my wedding day. I'm not really that old yet.

And it is now December. And it will be 2011 in a month time. Masa berlalu sangat cepat kan? And I will be on my third semester. Sometimes I do miss the semesters in Cardiff Uni, masa memang tak sedar sedang berlalu, about 3 - 4 months for a semester? And now, even if the semesters are half longer, the work is triple, maybe four. It is tougher taking a degree in Malaysia, where little and sometimes nonsense things count. I hate it, but I love being here.

And now it is about a month before the break ends. And I need to work fast.

Now.

Exam Stress

I'm supposed to read about the coming paper but ended up reading one of the Harry Potter's books. I have no intention of studying when all I see are theories. Why should we memorize those theories since when teaching, we are suppose to apply the theories rather than listing the definitions, concepts and all? I mean, implication in class is the best question, or maybe opinions on how should we apply those theories in class to give up the full volume of the students' potential? Or maybe some 'high-level-thinking' type of questions which we need to analyse and make the best decision we could think of? Or describe a game which might in case helps a lot in presenting the topics to be taught rather than boring lectures?
I mean, questions which really give out new ideas and in a way exposing us to the real world of teaching.

But all I see are straight dull questions, which needing us to remember the facts despite of applying them.

Datang Dan Pergi..... Sesuka Hati.....

Baru ada tenaga untuk berfikir. I spent this whole day sleeping. I was not feeling well. I even brought my blanket to class because it was cold and my whole body was shivering. I didn't even do a thing for the convocation. I want to help, at least something, but I don't think I'm able to. And adding up to the sickness, we got another assignment to be done, ELP, which is basically English, and need to be submitted next Monday after a test, a final test for the ELP course. And at the same day, we need to present our work, Literasi Bahasa, so that the lecturer can chose the best three to be included in an exhibition on 19th (or maybe 17th, tak ingatlah).

I believe everyone is in a mess right now. Just imagine, you are busy with the convo's preparation, and suddenly you got an assignment which the due date is next week. I just thought, 'How cruel the lecturers can be actually?'

Okay, that's for others. For me, in my group, there are two people who are not well, me and Kimah. Nasrul is too busy. Everybody in the JPP is busy. Sya is also busy, as one of the committee members of the surau. Usually, the most not-busy-person is only me. But with me lying down 24/7 like this, I can't be as effective as I usually am.

Abang burst out just now; aku mengomel tak nak belajar dah, tak nak duduk sini dah. He said, 'Tahu tak berapa ramai orang yang nak belajar tapi tak dapat peluang?'. I replied that I'm in stress, told him all the problems as I mentioned above, but he didn't reply back. Okay, biar lantak.

Suhu Badan Naik Sudahhhhhh

Am I the last person 'infected' by fever in here? It is fever season starting the first week after Raya break. And after 2 weeks, and most of the people are already fine, suddenly I got it.

It started with diarrhea for two days, 'angin' (as usual) with my right arm cannot be moved because it hurts like hell, and then I suddenly felt cold and was shivering, and the temperature rose.

I don't feel okay, especially I am enthusiastic to do the assignment. Okay, the next one will be submitted this coming Monday, and I need to work for the presentation, reflection and poster, plus compiling all and print them out. I don't think I can finish them all this Sunday night when I'm stuck in bed and having this headache and shivering and all.

I want to go home tomorrow. Want to get a massage, and maybe off to hospital if the temperature is too high. But I don't think it will be. Anyway, going home is not really easy in here when you don't have any means of transportation.

Anyway, I guess maybe lack of rest and rushing here and there makes everyone falls sick. It's assignments weeks guys! Everyone is crazy like hell catching the deadlines. Some lecturer may be very nice giving extensions, but some are not. And sleeping 4 am in the morning everyday is not good for your health, isn't it?

SO, that's my second semester in here. RUSHING. That's the best description. And dealing with people who are so much procedural is a pain. I mean, what's the matter of ONE page of the assignment is not in order? Everyone is rushing. Need not to be too emotional about that. It's not done intentionally.

But I love to thanks my lecturers for extending the deadlines. It helps so much; with the work, and with the stress.

Sudah-Sudahlah Beraya Tu Beb!!

Baru siap praktikal 4. Dan ada 2 lagi praktikal report yang perlu ditaip (dan kena fikir because I haven't learn chemistry since form 5). Malam tadi aku mengomel, 'kenapalah aku bodoh sangat. kenapalah aku tak tahu langsung pasal reaction or experiment ni. kenapalah aku have no idea what actually is happening right now? what am i going to write on exam paper if i actually know nothing about these topics? yes, i have to learn by myself all about chemistry that THEY'VE LEARNT during their foundation year. am i going to be all crazy like last semester because I DON'T UNDERSTAND ANYTHING about biology and simply buat kesimpulan dan kefahaman sendiri atas bacaan sendiri?'

Kadang fikir, I have to do everything alone. Yalah, if everybody memang dah tau, buat apa nak belajar lebih-lebih dalam kelas kan? Better give more attention to practicals, ISLs, assignments. Takkan nak ajar bit by bit just for the sake of me. Instead, aku yang kena kerja lebih. Tapi tension juga sebab it is only me yang berkerut dahi dalam kelas sebab tak faham langsung term-term yang digunakan, nama-nama chemicals yang entah apa entah. Aku simply tension.

Okay, tarik nafas dalam-dalam. Tenang. Jom pergi kedai kejap beli buku.

Buku virtual tak membantu langsung.

Hilang Momentum

I lost my practical manuals and some of my assignments papers. Tak tahulah Mak letak mana. And I thought of doing my assignment, tapi bila tengok soalan, jadi hilang punca.

Dah berapa lama tak buat kerja. Harap sempat siap sebelum habis cuti.

Another Warm Day At School

I planned to get to know the school more. And I haven't got any chance to go around. So I took today's opportunity to have a round. And it was great. Well, the school is actually smaller than I thought. Last time I got into the school was 11 years ago, watching Angah during the school's sports day. That's before the new building was built.

So I went around. And I stopped by the special class area. And I was fascinated by the kids there. I was welcomed by them, happily seeing a new teacher approaching them. All of them are slow learners, and some got down syndrome. And to my surprise, they learn as what normal kids do. Well, a bit lower degree, but they still learn subjects as BM, English, Maths, Science etc; plus skills such as gardening and cooking. They will be in primary school for 8 years until age of 14 before going to secondary school. In that school, it also has pre-school for these special children.

That is one of the thing I got today. Well, I got more, but I want to do something.

Out

Gua Mengantuk dan Serabut!!!

First of all, is about the school. I'm okay with the teachers, their help in my work, but I'm not sure whether is compatible with my work or not. And how am I going to make the teacher aid stuff, because they already have the thing and I just need to conduct the activity. That is number one, and that will be on Thursday morning.

Second, I just remembered that I have that MAB assignment and I haven't do anything yet, even reading. Well, maybe I can start by writing the procedure of the game. That should make everything easier.

Next, the LB, the puppets!! Well, that can be done next AFTER the MAB.

What else?

Oh GOD. Once I think about work, I really feel lost. There are too much to do, including the preparation for Eid.

Memang serabut. 3 weeks, they should extend the time.

Too Relax

Sungguh. Semalam, balik sekolah aku tidur. Dan malam tu hanya mengemas bilik, tak usik langsung kerja. Dan sekarang pun rasa macam malas sangat nak mula buat kerja even laptop dah ada atas riba.

Risau tu ada. Sebab I know, a day of relaxing without doing any homework means I wont have enough time to finish them all before the deadline. Actually, my 'practical' work for PBS is already finish. Just to add up several collaboration and reflection forms. But to type the rest, macam susah gila. And I can even do almost all of the KKBI pedagogy assignment, and PBS science, sebab hampir semua bahan dah dapat.

Oh manusia, rajinlah!!

p/s : petang ni nak buat kuih raya. yeay!!!

First Day of SBE at SK Mahmud

Sangat........warm. Rasa macam jauh beza dengan SBE yang pertama dahulu. Cikgu yang ada pun sangat membantu. Students tak tahu lagilah. Baru masuk satu kelas, dan murid-muridnya okay dan tak nakal sangat. Cuma banyak bercakap saja. Sampai sakit gegendang telinga aku.

Khamis masuk kelas, bukan tugasan Pedagogy. Jumaat mungkin masuk kelas lagi, buat tugasan Sains.

Esok cuti!! Hahahahahaha....

Kerja dah menimbun menunggu (^_^)

Of Paper and Paper

Esok nak ke sekolah. Right, yang berada di Kelantan dah pun ke sekolah hari ni.

Tak suka!! Tak suka!!

Bukan sebab apa, cuma bila memikirkan tugasan yang dapat tu, kepala jadi pusing pula.

What should I do actually? What concept should I teach to the students, and what teaching aid tools should I make?

Sekarang sedang meneliti HSP dan buat keputusan.

Another Assignments Dude..

Yepp.. we got 3 more. One is supposed to be submitted today. But since we just got it, I'm not sure when should we submit. Second one need to be submitted on 21st Sept (gila aahhhh!!) and the last one will be on 28th.

Oh mengapakah ini berlaku???

Ohhhhhoooooo... assignment(S)

Hari ini, dengan kepala gua yang dah pusing-pusing macam 'spinning gasing', dikejutkan dengan pengkhabaran berkenaan presentation Literasi Bahasa yang perlu dilakukan pada esok harinya. Demmm.. gila punya last minute. Baru bersenang lenang dengan tamatnya exhibition last week (yang diiringi demam yang dah pun infect a quarter of the class dan makin merebak). That is number one.

Second is, assignment Literasi Bahasa baru saja kami tahu kewujudannya hari ini DAN, tarikh untuk hantar assignment tu adalah HARI INI. AlhamduliLLah, dengan budi bicara lecturer => hantar lepas cuti. Not yeay yet, because I got more.

I believe, almost all students in here got lots of assignments and reports to deal with during this semester, especially during the week of Raya's break (sebab ada SBE). Guess what, we (science students), got 4 lab reports, LB's assignment and MAB's assignment to be submitted on 20th Sept, which is the first day after the break!! That's 6 things to settle, at least.
And, on 23th Sept, we need to submit the Pedagogy KKBI.

And for my LB group, our last presentation (which includes the activities) will be on 20th Sept too. So, that is really a headache.

That's not all. Within two weeks after the break, we need to finish writing the assignments for SBE, Science SBE, and KKBI Science.

I don't know about others, but I believe everyone will be in stress for the next one month.

Good luck guys!!

Mansuh Tak Mansuh Itu Kerja Orang Atas

Aku nak kata 100% setuju UPSR & PMR mansuh ni, tidaklah. Bak kata kebanyakan orang, modify mengikut keperluan semasa. Yalah, sekarang ni ibu bapa ramai yang mendesak anak dapat gred A. Kalaulah boleh, semua subjek yang ada, semuanya nak ambil. Kalau yang jenis pintar cerdas tu, biarlah. Tapi bagi yang lemah? Yang berkeperluan khas? Yang mahir dalam amali dan praktikal tapi lemah dalam menjawab soalan peperiksaan?

Semuanya kena kira. Make it 40-50% kerja kursus dan projek, a small proportion on monthly test or regular observations, and the rest on exams. Maka yang lahirnya, pelajar yang berkualiti dan punya tenaga kerja yang mahir. Bukan graduan atas kertas semata-mata.

Di kawasan perumahan aku ramai sangat dah yang berhenti sekolah. Bukan sebab miskin, atau bodoh. Tapi dah jemu.

Kalau budak-budak dah malas dan jemu nak belajar, macam mana dengan masa depan? Yang rosak itu MUSLIM. Bukan orang lain.