Friday 26 June 2009

Bosan!!!!

Aku kebosanan tahap gaban dah ni. Tensi gila!!

Kononnya nak kemas bilik, boleh blah!! Segala anak cucu tersorok sana sini, baju berminggu tak lipat, kotak berterabur. Ngehhh.. bilik anak dara amenda macam ni?

Aku baru tadi, buat agar-agar mangga. Tak sedap rasanya. Tak tahulah kalau sejuk, jadi sedap pula. Hehe..
Saja nak bikin eksperimen. Kalau tak jadi, makan sajalah. Bahan-bahan lebihan tu, boleh juga makan. Satu sajalah masalahnya. Aku lupa condensed milk tu susu pekat. Aku nak beli susu cair, baru creamy. Cehhh sungguh.

Sekarang tangan gatal nak beli telefon baru. Tadi survey dual sim punya fon. Pehhh.. cun habislah!! Duit tengah banyak, mesti tangan gatal selalu. Target aku, sabtu ahad ni nak ke car boot sale, borong baju. Peduli apa baju banyak ke sikit. Bosan ne!!

Thursday 25 June 2009

Apakah Nasib Kita Di Sana Nanti?

Setiap perkara yang kita lakukan, pasti akan dibentangkan di depan mata kita nanti. Soalan, dan jawapan, walaupun kita tahu, tapi kerana imanlah kita akan mampu jawab semuanya. Bagaimana pula dengan siksa? Dosa yang besar yang pernah dilakukan dulu, dan sekarang, tambah lagi dengan dosa kecil. Dosa kecil, yang sering kita endahkan.

Sejak kebelakangan ini aku digemparkan dengan kematian beberapa kenalan.

Dan semalam, seorang sahabat mengatakan, dia punya risiko yang tinggi mendapat kanser. Aku diam, tak tahu apa yang perlu aku katakan.

Sedih? Sedikit.

Relax? Ada juga sedikit.

Dalam mana agaknya cinta aku pada dunia dan segala isinya?

Kesayangan aku ada satu dan tunggal sahaja. Tapi beberapa orang sekeliling, andai ada apa-apa yang terjadi pada mereka, juga hartaku yang tak seberapa, andai aku kehilangan, gila meroyan juga.

Aku juga sedang sakit sekarang. Tapi tak aku endahkan. Tidak serius padaku.

Kanser, aku fikir aku juga ada peluang untuk kena. Beberapa indikasi yang aku rasa sekarang, sama ada pada bahagian kepala, jantung, dan payudara, seperti satu tanda, yang aku tak punya kesihatan yang bagus.

Sakitnya mental aku, pada aku tak membahayakan badan aku tapi jiwa.

Dengan tenang dia berkata, dia tak mungkin akan hidup melebihi 30 tahun. Dan dia sudah pun berusia 20an.

Ajal maut, di tangan Allah.

Aku punya keinginan yang satu. Dan buruk.

Andai aku pergi dahulu, tanpa tercapai cita-cita aku yang satu itu, aku mahu seseorang itu menyesal hingga ke akhir hayatnya, sehingga dia hilang jiwanya dan meratapi kesalahannya setiap saat yang dia lalui. Aku mahu dia menderita.

Kejam bukan? Aku cuba nafikan keinginan aku, tapi itulah yang aku ingini.

Semoga dia pergi dahulu daripada aku.

Wednesday 24 June 2009

Gambar Jalan - Jalan Summer 09

Aku cuba up di Friendster. Cam hampeh!! Disebabkan resolusi gambar aku tinggi mencecah 3Mb, maka aku up guna tools yang ada, tapi akhirnya hanya 11 daripada 89 yang berjaya di'up'. Berapa jam aku tunggu + line internet jadi lembab, bikin hati aku panas saja. Nak kecilkan saiz? Takde kerja, lecehlah!! Gambar 200 ++ keping, nak edit automatik pun dah makan masa. Nak kecilkan lagi? Setakat beberapa ratus kb, apa barang!! (Ayat berlagak). Akhirnya aku bikin benda yang lebih senang yang sepatutnya aku buat dari dulu lagi; install java dan drap drop di Multiply (baru sekarang nak install?). See, Multiply memang the best untuk 'pencinta seni' dan kaki download macam aku ni. Nak up gambar besar mana pun boleh, siap simpan lagi resolusi sebenar gambar tu (hint : klik atas kanan gambar yang ada tulisan 'zoom in', bagi sesiapa yang tak tahu tu).

Cakap banyak tak guna, kalau nak tengok gambar, ada sini.








Dalam keretapi kami jumpa journalist. Jangan jeles kalau kami masuk magazine nanti. Hahaha..

Dan, aku terpaksa buka satu akaun Facebook sebab mereka kata senang nak tag-tag gambar. Itu Facebook, kena upgrade lagilah aku rasa. Aku kena up sampai empat kali gambar(s) yang sama walaupun kononnya boleh guna java juga. (Izat tak tahu lagi wonders of Multiply ni). Haihh.. trend sekaranglah guna Facebook. Apa yang best, aku pun tak tahu. Tapi terpaksalah. Di Facebook ramai kawan-kawan sini, di Friendster ramai kawan-kawan sekolah.

Hari ini Izat kata 'jom buat agar-agar strawberi!!'. Dia pergi petik strawberi semalam. Rugi sungguh aku tak ikut. Bayar murah, petik banyak. Walaupun aku tak suka makan strawberi, strawberi fresh yang dia petik semalam memang sedap. Tapi apa boleh bikin, badan aku sudah sakit-sakitlah. Dahlah tu, ajak pergi Nandos masa aku baru siap makan. Tak sempat nak jadi karnivor buas semalam.

Ini salah satu gambar terbaik aku ambil itu hari.



Amacam? Cun tak?

Friday 19 June 2009

Bosan..Bosan!!!!

Aku tak pergi kerja hari ni. Ada sedikit hal peribadi nak settle-kan. Sekarang tengah tunggu kira-kira setengah jam lagi untuk orang tu balik kerja dan mandi, solat etc.

Hari ni, mood aku macam tawar semacam aje.

But I did at least something today, despite of not going to work. First, I uploaded 2 albums in the Multiply. One is Venom, the other is AC DC. Bosan sangat kan. But, no one ever look at the Venom. Haha... tak ramai orang nak dengar kot. But, the music is not as harsh as I thought (this is my first time dengar lagu Venom). Mild jugalah, ala-ala fast rock aje. Ngehhhh.. jangan marahlah peminat Venom. Slayer's pun agak mild juga musicnya. Baru sampai tadi album ni. Reign of Blood. Punyalah teruja aku nak dengar. Hampa tu tidak, cuma macam tak puas pula dengar. Dan 2nd round dah ni. And, ada satu lagu ni intronya hampir sama dengan Dinasti Airmata - Desire. Ni tengah main lagu tu sekarang ni.

And, tadi pun baru sampai album Megadeth pertama aku. Lepas ni pasang. Excited maaa..
Sekarang ni tinggal Samael saja yang belum sampai.

Sendi-sendi jari aku ni, masih rasa sakit lagi. Sekarang ni, sendi jari kelingking kiri aku sakit. Fikir-fikir, ada juga peluang nak kena arthritis. Ini, penangan paksa jari tu tekan tali gitarlah tu. Jadi cinonet, susah nak bengkok pula tu. Menderita la..

Aku fikir-fikir, ada untungnya juga aku tak pergi kerja tadi. See.. one of my housemates, panaskan minyak atas dapur. Then, she went upstairs into her room. Then, I was happened to go downstairs sebab nak tengok my parcels dah sampai ke belum. I saw banyak asap. And bau hangit. Bergegas ke dapur and nampaklah one small pan atas api. Cepat-cepat padamkan and buka semua tingkap. Gee... and I didn't hear she went downstairs lagi ni. Kalaulah aku pergi kerja tadi, habislah rumah ni kena jilat api. Susah nak sedar, sebab bilik dia di tingkat atas hadapan. Dapur di belakang. And, there's no one else at home. Haiyyyoooo... Sangat bahaya.
Sepatutnya aku boleh bau kalau ada apa-apa yang dimasak di dapur, sebab bilik aku betul-betul atas dapur. But, sekarang dah dikaburi dengan bau rokok, dan tingkap bilik aku pun buka. Jadi, aku memang takkan bau sangat. Just being saved by Allah, gave me instinct to check the mail. Haihhhh... Sekali meletup paip gas. Habis semua.

Wednesday 17 June 2009

The Coming Weekend

Me is going to go to Pembrokeshire, with Izat and Aufa and another 2 postgraduate guys. Emma and Ila, will be going too, if Ila is not hesitate. We will rent a van. It's not really far, maybe around 2 to 3 hours drive, and will stay there for 3 days. There will be beaches, and crabs hunting, and visiting national park etc.

Lama tak main kamera ni. Yeah!! Among the last days in UK, kena ada kenangan terakhir.

Oh ya, got the job for the charity shop, and it's a volunteer job. No bother, just need things to do during this summer holiday.

I am selling my stuffs here, malas nak bawa balik banyak-banyak. My printer is sold, for £20. Quite cheap. I bought it around £25 - £30, and it's still new.
Banyak benda nak jual ni. Take less bulk thing home, easier to ship.

Tuesday 16 June 2009

Sangat Chomel!!!

You know, I went out with Izat yesterday. We went to the market, and bought fish and some veges. Then suddenly we thought of going to the first floor of the market. I never went upstairs.

The first thing that I saw, was LPs. A lot of them. Luckily I'm not really fond of LP. So I just went pass the shops. Also I saw lots of CD. I thought of checking on them, but there are too much. So we just went on.

Then there are restaurants, and a tailor shop, then we went pass pet shops. First, there were fish. Small ones. Cute though.

But, when we went pass rodent's pet shop, we stopped. I shrieked, when I saw those hamsters. Super duper cute!! I always want to have hamsters. And then when I saw those tidy heads poking out from a hump of threads and wood pieces. I went crazy just because of that.

I really..want..one.

I am still shrieking while looking at the pictures of hamster in Google. Ahh.. kuatnya nafsu!!



Look!! How cute it is...

Pagi Selasa Yang... Agak Lapar

Emmm..... I made another box for my cassettes, that makes three in total. I burned lots of CDs, so need more space to store.

Well, just received another 'trial' CD, this time is Venom - The Seven Gates Of Hell 1980-1985 Singles. Ahh.. the lyrics are... you know, but the music is still a bit mild, for me. Layan jugalah. Few days back then, I feel like listening to metal songs more than ever. Sekali sekala. Kiranya telinga aku dah boleh terima lagu bahasa omputih dah la.

Actually, Izat and I applied for part time job, in Islamic Relief charity shop. But not confirm yet, as the person in charge haven't reply the text Izat sent yesterday yet. But Izat decided to go and just check for herself, while me melepak dalam rumah and waited for her to come back and bring a disposable BBQ set home. Hari ini makan ikan bakar!!

Yesterday, when we went to buy fish, I got scolded by the fishmonger, because I touch the fish. Garang sungguh. I just want to check whether the fish is fresh or not. Huh!!

Emm.........

Monday 15 June 2009

Mula Terasa Nak Jual Segala Benda Yang Ada

Aku dah jual telefon aku. Hehe.. jual pada MazumaMobile.com, dan dapat jual pada harga £26. Jika aku jual pada Invirofone.com, aku hanya dapat £23.xx.
So, sekarang aku guna hp Nokia lama aku. Ahh.. walaupun tak punya features seperti kamera atau mp3 ringtone, masih lagi boleh guna. Lagipun, aku rasa nafsu nak cari telefon baru ni masih kuat.

Sunday 14 June 2009

Panas Mata..Pedihhhh..

Aku tengok gambar satu minah ni. Aku kenallah. Alah, biasalah kan, duk melepak pantai, pakai bikini got, tanned, even YOU ARE A MUSLIM. Kan? Kan?

Everything is not right. Everything!!

Tak kisahlah kalau orang nak kata, "Ala... pakai tudung tak semestinya baik. Kat internet sekarang macam-macam ada."

Then, if your mom jenis pakai tudung gak, dare to say yang dia pun tak semestinya baik, pernah juga merendet macam pelacur macam yang selalu kita tengok kat internet tu??

Yalah, dunia dah serba moden. Wanita seusia dengan aku, tak logiklah tak pernah langsung 'main'. Kan? Kan?

Dunia serba moden yang menyakitkan kepala. Perangai masing-masing macam apa tah.

Wednesday 10 June 2009

I Made A Cake

I was planning, last weekend, to make a fruit cake. So, today, when there's no one at home, got to the kitchen, dan mulalah buat. Frankly, I don't know how to make, I just know what is needed, but the amount, I have no idea about that.

So, I put half cup of butter, mixed it with a cup of granulated and brown sugar. After they mixed up, I add an egg. After that, add in a little vanilla essence and salt, a cup of plain flour, a cup of self-raising flour and a little bit of baking powder. Then I noticed the mixture is a bit hard, so I add more butter. And then add the raisins and nuts, and divide the mixture into two. One for chocolate flavour and the other one for coffee flavour. Pour into baking tray and then put it into the oven. I don't know what temperature should I use, so I kept changing the temperature, and after two hours (maybe three, or four), the cake cooked (not really, aku dah letih menunggu jadi hentam sajalah kononnya dah masak).

So when I cut the cake, pecah-pecah jadinya. Macam cookies. Kiranya, kek tu tak jadi. And, pahit. I don't know why. Aku semangat gila maa.. Sampai buat cream untuk topping. Tapi tak kisahlah. Kena sorok kek ni nampak gayanya. Takkanlah nak bagi orang makan kek pahit macam ni.
Tapi the colour cantiklah. Kalau tengok rupa memang lawa, sekali rasa macam apa tah. Next time, no more cakes!!
Huh... what a waste.

Monday 8 June 2009

One Time When My Head Is Clear

Haha.. I feel.... a bit lightheaded now. Yalah, tak fikir benda-benda mengarut lagi, buat seketika. My thoughts is filled with sorts of happy and relaxing things. Like... I want to sit at the backyard, dazed under the bright hot sun, with a glass of cold drink, listening to music and relax myself for a while. Or, playing in the water, having a picnic by the river, with my family, and having barbecue. Or maybe just sit in front of TV, watching movies, and having ice cream or cakes. Or maybe surfing through the internet, download some albums and listen to them while reading mangas, treat myself with one or two..ehem. I'm changing to Malboro. Huhu..

I want to eat, rice. And I want to cook, I already defrost the chicken, but they said they want to cook. And I left them. So, when I went downstairs, about an hour ago, they are still there. So I just pretend taking out my milk in the fridge, and a bowl and a spoon, then went back to my room. Ahh.. having so much people sometimes is troublesome. I just feel awkward. Not their fault, mine. I can't really live with lots of people. I really changed. But, I guess they are feeling awkward too. As I am, they speak to me without looking at me too. Hoho.. Intense rasanya.

I thought of preparing surprise goodbye present. And, I already thought what I want to do. It's impossible for me to leave without a trace, but leave unexpectedly should be okay. (^_^)

Thursday 4 June 2009

All The Things Come Back At Me

2, 3 days back then, I always have a little conversation with him. He was one that I used to fall in love deeply. Even just for a while.

He's a nice guy, and the most handsome guy that I used to be together with. It's a shame, just to let everything go. But it's a must, because I want to choose the best for me. It's not going to work if I just consider other's feeling only. It's the matter of my whole life.

Actually, I'm worried, and sad when I see him gloomy and not feeling good. He used to be a happy person, and always teasing people, with his words and charm. He used to be friendly. But, after many things happen to him, I feel guilty because I'm also contribute to that.

I hope, he will be as what he used to be. I want to see him smiling again.

Rasa Seronok Bila Adik-Adik Makin Besar

Aku ada dua orang adik yang dah habis sekolah. Seorang dah habis STAM, dan seorang lain SPM. Seorang dah dapat tawaran untuk join (ustaz) tentera dan akan mula latihan di Port Dickson minggu depan. Dan seorang lagi dah pun mula kursus jururawat di Damansara. Bila adik-adik dah besar ni, rasa macam dah tua pula. Hehe..

Aku? Aku mungkin akan repeat program degree aku. Exam baru ni sucks habis. Mungkin aku akan mula kerja lagi lewat dari adik-adik aku. Apa boleh buat, dah nasib badan!!

Wednesday 3 June 2009

Got New Stuffs

I ordered 4 cassettes last week, and two arrived today, which are Dio - Dream Evil and Metal Church - Blessing In Disguise. I'm ripping Dream Evil just now, the first part when my radio got problem and the tape is stucking between the roller in the player. It happened to my Motley Crue before. Bengong punya radio.

Well, I'm not good in ripping cassettes, but I feel guilty if I don't post any album anymore. I'll do it slowly eh? And sorry if the sound's not really good as it is supposed to be.

Monday 1 June 2009

Need Hangers!!

Suddenly I realise, aku ada banyak juga baju yang sepatutnya digantung, but due tu insufficient place, aku banyak lipat. But then, my wardrobe macam dah sendat, and I need to rearrange everything. And at my mom's home, my clothes are as much as many as I have now.

Well, not all are my clothes. Some are my friends', and Mak's and Abah's, and mak and pak sedara, and even from my younger brothers and sister. Mine have as old as 9 years old, saiz aku tak banyak berubah, dan tahan lama bila aku yang pakai. Aaa.. some of my track suits and t shirts rosak bila dapat kat adik-adik aku, and mak. So, it's not the fault of how old the clothes are, or how cheap they are, or how long you haven't got new clothes that you have to wear the same clothes more regularly, it's the matter of taking care of your items.

Emm.. maybe another reason is adik-adik aku growing rapidly. Three of them are larger (taller and bigger) than me, and one is catching me, another one.. well, we'll see in five years time.

I'm sleepy, and my room is such in a mess, and clothes bertimbun atas tilam. Arghhhh!!!!

I think I'll drop by at Pound Stretcher tomorrow after exam, and Sue Rider. Got to check the new stock. Hoho..

P/S : Sue Rider is a charity shop, selling used clothes, toys, novels, videos and home accessories.

Awalnya Tutup...

Aku, tak sangka pula Sainsbury tutup awal seawal jam 5 pada hari Ahad. Ingatkan, tutup pukul 8. Disebabkan kononnya mengidam nak makan trifle, sanggup jalan jauh sampai ke sana. Sampai-sampai, dah tutup. Cedihhhh...

Tapi akhirnya ke Chicken Cottage, got myself milkshake. Bolehlah, asalkan manis dan sejuk. I got 7up, lagi sikit nak habis, and almost lost the gas (dah dekat seminggu buka, it's 2L), tapi kalau buat sejuk, rasanya hilang juga rasa mengidam tu sikit. Maybe I need ice cream, or creamy yogurt. Or iced drinks. It's hot and dry nowadays.

Oh, I like using the term mengidam, because it sounds like I really want that thing badly.

And, I did a bit of shopping today. Got myself Iron Maiden, WASP (or Motley Crue, dah lupa), and... apa tah, dah lupa. Ahh.. Dio. All cassettes. And the delivery charge is a bit more expensive than the items themselves. If, I can find the same item in store or car boot sale, with about the same price, kan bagus. But hope the albums okay-lah. Because, I got this Thunder In The East cassette that I bought online, and when it arrived I noticed that the head tercabut, and I got no glue to stick it back, and I don't want to bother to send it back and claim my money sebab bukannya susah nak repair but not familiar what brand of glue should I buy, jadi sampai sekarang tak repair and dengar lagi. Well, I got the mp3 version, tapi listening to the original one is better, at least for me.

Since yesterday, I watch TV so much. I like this one program, showing how cops work. And Friends. I laughed. Well, I haven't laugh for months. Hehe..
And I watch this shop TV, jual hangers. Clothes hangers. Not that I want to buy, but tiba-tiba rasa semangat nak kemas almari. I like being organised, but I'm not. Well, at least I tried. I also bought same type of hangers, dululah. But, the wardrobe still macam tak menepati piawai citarasa aku.
I'm sucks at being organised, and tidy, but a bit good in showing off. Haha..

oh yes, tadi ke Chicken Cottage, this guy at the counter, macam not really good in English. Well, I'm not good either tapi setakat nak order makanan, bukannya sesuatu yang trivial. I need to repeat several times for him to understand what I want to buy. Tapi, taklah kisah pun.
But in the end he told me that I speak too slow, he barely heard me. Hu??? But then I said sorry to him, and he's actually a nice guy. Okay, salah aku sebab kutuk dia awal-awal tadi, even kutuk dalam hati.
But, I really never realise that I speak too slow. Maybe, because the weather is dry, or maybe I don't drink enough water nowadays, or maybe because I haven't speak for weeks with human directly that aku tak tahu nak adjust volume level yang sesuai untuk bercakap. Haha..

I need to do some cleaning, and taking a bath. Tomorrow's the last paper, and I might get up late.

I got to cool my 7up first.