Saturday Morning

I woke up early today, with confusion in mind. If yesterday I was confused to go home or not to go home, today I was confused to go out or not. I want to go to pekan sari, send kain baju kurung to any kedai jahit untuk jahit tepi (or kelim tepi as Eda said yesterday via SMS), also to buy some zips, getah pinggang, cangkuk kain and benang. So, decision making session was done on bed (not a suitable place to do so because you'll tend not to make a wise decision and mengikut nafsu malas atau mengantuk). And there goes my last word, tak pergi because esok I might be going out to Raub jadi boleh beli di pekan sari Raub sahaja plus akan singgah di rumah so I'll send the kain to Mak Cik Nora who lives near my house so Mak boleh ambil saja kain tu bila dah siap and I don't have to worry much.

Quite a 'wise' backups bila kepala dikuasai sifat malas. Malas nak mandi (optional aje), tukar baju, berjalan ke bawah (which takes about 7-10 minutes from asrama), tunggu bas lagi.

But still, I got up, tak sambung tidur. Macam magik boleh bangun awal macam ni. Hari Sabtu kalau bangun sebelum jam 12 memang pelik, bagi aku. Biology clock memang selalunya menyedarkan aku bila dah mula jam 12. Kalau sebelum jam 12 selalunya tak sedar apa-apa langsung. Biasa la, jenis dinasor yang tido mati. Hehe..

Continuing yesterday's babbling about college life. Each person in college will have a pet family, who each of the members are from the same house. They'll be your family in there, where should you pretend them to be your real brothers and sisters. No mama or papa eh. When I was still a junior, I have two pet sisters only. They are ADA and NOR. A year older than me, I should be considered 'kurang ajar' because not calling them 'kak'. Well, depends on the person themselves. I am okay if not being called 'kak' or whatsoever the name is. But most of the girls care. For me, we can respect anybody that we think deserves to be respected. And I rarely respect people even they are much much older than me.

Anyway, ADA is what we will say 'alim' when we look at her at the first sight. Dengan tudung labuh jenis bulat, selalu berbaju kurung (pink??), bercermin mata, muka kecil dan bulat, pendiam; she is very nice. I don't know where she is now. She was sponsored by KPM too, I guess is doing KPLI. She was doing Maths at Birmingham, and she urged me several times to go to her house when we were there. Ahh, I'm not a travelling kind. NOR, on the other hand was doing Business (maybe accounting, or economics, gabungan antara 3 tu la) in Warwick. I'm not sure whether she already graduated or not. I rarely contact her.

So, when I was in my senior year, it was time for me to be the elders. I was joined by Fendi, another 'terbuang' pet family sebab tak pernah ada pet sibling. So, we picked two juniors, a boy and a girl. I got this guy name Khairul Nizam bin Othman (70% the same name with Abang), and Fendi got this girl which I forgot the name but he changed the girl with somebody else's pet sis, and we got Nadia. Nadia actually at the same age as mine because she went to matriculation first before doing A-level.

I was not really close to Nadia even our chalet cuma menyebelah saja. I am close with Nizam. Gave him sweets each time we met anywhere, berhenti borak-borak sekejap. He is a warm and nice guy (and now becomes much macho than what he was years ago). And I got a photo of four of us during Bangsawan. Tapi tak nak letak sinilah. I was wearing short sleeves pada zaman tu, rasanya tak patut letak sini. But during Bangsawan, I was doing props so I was wearing serba hitam, Nizam dengan songkok ada bulu-bulu macam penari zapin (he was a dancer masa Bangsawan tu), Nadia with 'dayang' outfit, Fendi pula dengan pakaian orang-orang besar istana (laksamana I guess). We got smiles on our face, and it was very fun during our life in college.

Funny, how I can easily forget things. I got all the best others would dream for. But I always feel that anything that I get or have is nothing, not something to be chased for. Rezeki Allah beri pada semua orang. I don't think we should be proud or what else dengan hadiah yang Allah beri pada kita. But at the time, my 'ignorance' comes together with not appreciating the gifts that Allah gave. I was totally ignoring life. I was chasing something else others won't even dream of getting it. I should have known, I can get both. Tapi zaman tu muda sangat, darah muda masih terlalu panas.

How I wish I can turn back time. But if I was not as what I was years ago, I will never be like what I am today.